Changes, the big changes, carry a mix of excitement and self doubt. Seems getting by is nice for just so long. I never realized the fact that life is very much lived in stages, or progressions when I was younger. Life seemed more as a timeline with future dates of significance.
My last, and current cycle has been one with a regrouping agenda. Planting my feet again and adapting to a whole new set of criteria. Being single and living alone is one big bag of mixed emotions. For the most part, it has been very liberating, and actually quite insightful. You seem to find an inner perspective and self realization by maintaining such a free, uncompromising, and unscheduled life. You think and ponder past and future a lot more without distractions bombarding you at every turn. What am I talking about? Who knows ... this is one of those ramble and type random pops of my brain posts. Sometimes they just fall out of your crack butt.
Here are the main things I have learned about myself in the last 2 years.
1. I hate stress, and am not good at handling it. More peace, moh bettah
2. I don't really give a crap about how big or how nice my place is
3. Doing what I love is a soul builder. Taking concessions in some parts of my life to be able to find room for what I enjoy is invaluable
4. I am a great leader, yet a shitty follower. There, I admit it ... I think I am a good guy, but have a stubborn side.
For 2011
1. New job that does not make me want to tear my hair out
2. Make all changes needed to make #1 possible
Sounds so very simple when I write it down. Why is it that sometimes our minds make changes so difficult to accept?
11 comments:
Hoping and Praying for a wonderful 2011 for Dear Speedy...
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bindi
So very nice! ... thank you Bindhiya
So very nice! ... thank you Bindhiya
ah yes we make it sound so easy in our minds,but putting it into practice is not so easy.Here's to a good year my friend.
from one stubborn single guy to another..I know where you are..do what soothes the soul.. and eat chikkin while your doing it..:)
I love it and I can relate to all that you said. I see a little more serious side to the Speedcat, oh...that's Eric, I like him. He and his words are comforting and enlightening. Best of everything to you in 2011. You are a great guy :)
You and I are much alike. I'm a great leader and a terrible follower too. Go out and do what you need to do. We aren't getting any younger so get that job that has far less stress and then you can truly be you.
Have a terrific day Speedy. Super big hugs coming for cold California. :)
To one very special fella, you are a delight, and I am soo happy to have met you.
I want you to find that new job if it will give you comfort!
Hugs my friend, Patty
"Being single and living alone is one big bag of mixed emotions. "
Oh I know all about THAT!
Happy New Year, Speedy. May 2011 be an awesome year. For the both of us!
The one major accomplishment with me is I'm happy to just be me. Wishing you the same dear Speedy :)
Wow could I relate to this post!!!
I think you will get that new job and do what it takes to get it. Even if it means moving to Antarctica! You are not a limited thinker. You will find that job wherever it is and whatever it is.
And why is it so hard to change? I actually know this one. Our brain is on autopilot. The autopilot is set by our highest value. We will AUTOMATICALLY do whatever supports our highest value and automatically resist whatever challenges it. The auto pilot runs 24/7 ... the conscious self that wants to change things up has to compete with that and it's no small matter. To change your outcome, examine your highest value. It might not be what you thought it was, and your autopilot is working round the clock to make SURE you get your highest value. That's what you want to re-program OR accept and go in that direction? yeah. but it can be done. I believe it can be done. As we see the value in other choices, they become important to us and become high values, so I really believe it's possible to change our lives for the better.
Good luck Speedycat. I loved this post. xoxooxox
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